Im shadowed im broken beyond repair, im jaded so sick of being here...who sings this? its driving me nuts?

im shadowed im broken beyond repair, im jaded so sick of being here.i ****** up one too many times. and this time i ****** up my whole life. but its coming for a while and ive been hiding in denial i never had quite what it takes to be a man i should have turned myself around. i should have tried to stna dm y ground but now its over and theres nothing to do for me but go...those are the lyrics to the beginning of the song. it says its by bmc. but who is bmc?? i dont know where i got it from. and some people are saying ashley parker angel but its not him. this is driving me INSANE